Friday, January 23, 2009

what's next?

I'm sorry, but I hate how one day she pisses you off and the next you are all buddy-buddy with her.
I'm sorry, but I cannot stand how fake you are towards me.
I'm sorry, but it really wasn't fucking fair and you know it.

Actually, I'm not sorry.

Today I wrote a poem. I think it's pretty lame, but here goes...


Maybe there's an answer,
Maybe there's a way,
Maybe he will stick around for just one more day.

Maybe I can sing,
Maybe I can dance,
Maybe he will decide to give it another chance.

Maybe we will find it,
Maybe we won't,
Maybe we already know...maybe we don't.

-Janae Lewis


epiphanyofme said...

I hope you're not still mad at me, but you probably are, and that's understandable, but I just wanted to try and say something about it.

Yes, one day she does piss me off, or more, aspects of her personality. I just don't always agree with the life she leads, or her attitude towards others (and sometimes me).
But we do get along and have a lot in common and she's a good friend to me. So I just let it be.

I really don't try to be fake towards you ever, and if I am, I'm really sorry. I am. Sometimes I feel like I'm too real with you, meaning I just don't really think about what I'm saying, and then I realize it probably upset you and then I feel like shit about it, and I try to be extra nice to make up for it. And I'm so sorry for that. I'll try to regulate what I say so I'm not a bitch.

I didn't think it was that big of a deal, but I guess to you it was, so I'm sorry I didn't realize that. I thought you knew the rule, so I thought it was just fair all around. I guess not though, and it won't happen again.

You might not be, but I am.

janaerhianna said...

The part about being fake, was about her. Not you. I would write more but I need to do my Seminar Assessment.