the city sounds fade and disappear

I try so hard to just forgive people and give them another chance, and they continually blow it. So I am giving up. I'm giving up on the people who don't care. I'm giving up on the people who lie, especially the ones that I know are lying. I'm giving up on the people who I mean nothing to, and the people who mean nothing to me as well. That's a lot of fucking people. But I don't deserve the constant pain that is thrown at me from all directions. I deserve happiness, and I am going to find it and declare it for myself, one way or another.