Wednesday, May 13, 2009

tumble, tumble, tumble

I'm not sure I'll make it my regular,
but I love the layout so much more.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

no one knows; will they ever know?

I will never feel like I have succeeded.
I will always feel like a failure.

If there weren't so many people that I cared about, and that cared about me, I would have no problem ending my life. There are so many negative connotations of death, but I honestly believe there is something bigger and better after you die. I don't know what it is, but I want to find out.

I don't know about destiny, but I believe in fate.

Let me live in the stars and eat chocolate strawberry waffles all the time. That is my dream. But I will miss the little things.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

you said that i will be okay

I realized something last night. I do deserve someone who admires my good heart. I do deserve someone who treats me well. I deserve someone so much better than you, and you aren't even all that bad of a person. I am okay with being alone right now. I'm finding my way out of what seems to be a never-ending maze. I'm alright. Everything is going to be okay.

I hope Mitzi is in a wonderful place with endless amounts of Kongs and her hip problems and tumors are all gone, and she is running around and smiling her little heart out. I hope Hunter is there, and if he is, I hope they reunited and are having as much fun as they always had together.

Hollywood, here I come. Tonight should be an adventure!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

you were the sun

i was the one who worshipped you

Went to my first baseball game tonight. 2nd row box seats. LA Dodgers vs. AZ Diamondbacks. Had two Dodger dogs, screamed, jumped, and danced a lot. Picked a favorite because Tiffany and Avalon told me to. Picked Loney. After the 8th inning, helper guy told us that after Loney and some guy from the other team were done throwing the ball, Loney was gonna throw it in our direction so to jump and yell his name a lot. Did as he said. Loney looked right at me and threw it towards me/us. Went the row behind us. Tiffany's dad was sitting there (by then we had moved over and up a row) and it bounced off his hand, hit Tiffany's head, fell on the floor, and I picked it up and started jumping and screaming. I got on the screen! Made my entire night. Amazing amazing amazing. I just need an autograph now. Next time, huh? :)

I love you, Mitzi. I miss your whine, babygirl.

Monday, May 4, 2009

there's no address in the stars

I keep thinking she's coming back. I miss telling her all of my secrets. This isn't fair. There are horrible people out there with dogs who really don't deserve them. Why does mine have to be taken away?

Sunday, May 3, 2009

maybe we're not meant to be

I don't want to grow up. Fly me to Neverland with you, Peter.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

time is standing still

"You will be feeling lots of conflicting emotions today, which might confuse and frustrate you. So instead of listening to your heart, start paying more attention to your brain. Move these emotional thoughts into your head so you can look at them more analytically. Getting your feelings organized will help you understand them better and send you into a much more productive phase. So instead of reacting to your feelings, start dissecting them."
-Pisces Daily Extended Horoscope from Yahoo

Friday, May 1, 2009

everything means nothing

R.I.P. Mitzi
(November 9th, 1997 - May 1st, 2009)

I don't even know what to say yet. I missed you before you were gone. I haven't cried this much and that hardly in a very long time. I love you so much. I wish I didn't have to say goodbye.