welcome to my life

To be completely honest, I want a boyfriend. Really really really really badly. But I am so used to not having one, and not getting any of the people that I want, that I expect NOT to get one. For a very long time. Even when boys say they like me, they pretty much never ask me out. I want to start going out on dates. Why doesn't anyone do it that way anymore? Where's my dreamboy? Hahaha. I want an adventure. I want something real for once.